A Blur
Constant, repeating, yet different
Back and forth
Colors that I can't quite make out
Feelings associated with each
Moments I'm afraid I won't remember
A fast life with substance
Substance yet, no speed
Just sped up
Hard to stop and appreciate it
When you're doing 100
And you're always blinking
But I still see something
That might be all that matters
A Blur
Saturday, March 29, 2014
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Holding Me Back
I really feel like so much has been going on for me personally that I've not been able to keep track of any of it, or even fully appreciate it. Things haven't been flawless. They never really are. This is an imperfect world, after all. But I've got my health, I've got a roof over my head, I've got a good job, I've got a love that has and is strengthening with every hurdle we come across, my closest family and friends are with me, and it's all in no small part thanks to my Lord & savior, whom I often forget to thank & praise.
That being said...
I still feel that need to create. There's still that part of me that is not satisfied with where I am career-wise. It itches at me everyday. Some days more than others. But it's often held back. Mostly just because of me. I hold me back. I know I've got something. I just don't always know what to do with it. Where to start. Who to share it with. Who to trust it with. Who to ask about it. When the right time is to go for it. When the wrong time is. If the time has passed, or if it's yet to come, and if it does, will it be that storied thing that someone strives and fights for so long to achieve, only to find that it wasn't all that worth it to sacrifice or struggle for in the first place. Guess I won't know till I try.
Thursday, September 19, 2013
Words.
Not empty. Not full. Not filled. Not certain. Lazy. Retracting. Retracing. Reliving. Dreaming. Praying. Itching. Spending. Worrying. Concerning. Lying down. Cold, but not cold. Detached, still not cold. Something wrong. Something simple. Something stupid. Something sudden. Something expected. Almost. Resting. Tired, yet. Tired yet? Breathing. Believing. Always. Afraid of explosions. No standoffs. Happens anyway. Too many questions. Too much of the same. Not enough. Counting. Killing. Consumables. Miss eating. Miss tasting. Miss quiet. Miss music. Miss making. Misnomer. Misinterpret. Mispell. Miss the point. Withdrawn. Withheld. Within. My story. His story. Her story. History? Hurts to me. Least I think. Less I feel. Lest I kneel. Overwhelmed. Over budget. Over it. Trying to be. Vying. Reflection. Refraction. Direction. God help me.
Monday, August 5, 2013
What Does The Trayvon Martin/George Zimmerman Case Have In Common With The 40 Year Old Virgin? Read On...
So most of us are probably completely over hearing, seeing, and reading about it, but I really wanted to share this, because there has been so much back & forth over the entire situation. In my opinion, this was a very refreshingly unexpected, yet very poignant & educated opinion that is very hard to ignore, from a very unexpected place nonetheless. As an entertainer, I think it's important for us to show that we're not a bunch of mindless one trick ponies with no real contribution aside from our talents.
You can read the article here.
You can read the article here.
Monday, June 24, 2013
A Funk In The Air/The Irking
This past weekend ended with the beginning of...a funk. It all seemed to start late Friday/early Saturday, when I was on the train back home. I was in a textual conflict of sorts with my soon-to-be-not-so-far-away-from-home girlfriend. This then turned into a phone discussion (yes, discussion, not a fight). During that time, the train had been pretty packed with kids. Drunk kids. Loud kids. Half dressed kids. I had already moved once during the ride, as someone couldn't hold their liquor very well, and I was not about to stick around to find out what they had for lunch. More kids got on during my phone call, and conveniently sat in the seats in front of me. The girls were loud and arguing, mostly over absolutely nothing. I attempted to continue my phone convo, and did a fairly good job. But there was one moment that would pretty much set the tone for the rest of the weekend: The girl in the seat in front of me took it upon herself to reach back and feel the top of my head. Not the first time my head has garnered the attention of a girl, probably won't be the last. But it was the first time a complete stranger did it without my acknowledgement.
From there, I passed a car accident on the way back to the house during the cab ride back, which I would later find out on the news was a hit and run. The driver hit a phone pole and ended up leaving the other passengers behind. Thankfully, there were no deaths. Still really bad nevertheless. On Saturday, I slept in later than I normally do, and since then, it seems as though I haven't gotten enough sleep. Sunday should've been a lot more enjoyable than I experienced it, but I just felt exhausted throughout. I visited Brooklyn, had a great time with my extended family. But this day also didn't not have it's fair share of "?" moments. After having a great dinner at a local restaurant, we went to a diner for desert. We were having a good time laughing and goofing off, when suddenly I heard my friend yell "OH!", followed by the sound of something fall on the table. It was a beetle. Not just a small, minute beetle, but like an Animal Planet, ivory hued, hard shelled beetle. Not something that I've ever seen in Brooklyn. I grabbed a napkin and wrapped it up inside of it. I could feel it move in my grasp. My friend quickly put it out of it's misery. After leaving the diner, I waited in the car while my friends and their family did some talking outside. It was around this time that there was a lost dog running around, being chased by 2 girls. It was an unleashed Pomeranian. Again, not even a typical lost dog.
The funk hasn't really fully gone away, either. I'm not much for confrontation, but it would seem that whenever it happens, it's usually with people that matter. And I had one (confrontation, discussion, argument, what have you) yesterday. The bottom line of the entire scenario was regarding concern for my well being. I didn't mind any of that. But I think as most people would know, we tend to say things in the heat of the moment. Things that aren't exactly meant to comfort someone. Normally, I can take a shot or two. But there are few things in this world that irk me more than when a person is so convinced that they know they're right about something, that they have someone completely and totally figured out, that they underestimate the "criticizee's" ability. It wouldn't be the first time. Probably won't be the last. But this particular instance has me clearly irritated enough that I'm venting about the whole damn thing. I typically use these scenarios as fuel. That's the best way I get over it.
From there, I passed a car accident on the way back to the house during the cab ride back, which I would later find out on the news was a hit and run. The driver hit a phone pole and ended up leaving the other passengers behind. Thankfully, there were no deaths. Still really bad nevertheless. On Saturday, I slept in later than I normally do, and since then, it seems as though I haven't gotten enough sleep. Sunday should've been a lot more enjoyable than I experienced it, but I just felt exhausted throughout. I visited Brooklyn, had a great time with my extended family. But this day also didn't not have it's fair share of "?" moments. After having a great dinner at a local restaurant, we went to a diner for desert. We were having a good time laughing and goofing off, when suddenly I heard my friend yell "OH!", followed by the sound of something fall on the table. It was a beetle. Not just a small, minute beetle, but like an Animal Planet, ivory hued, hard shelled beetle. Not something that I've ever seen in Brooklyn. I grabbed a napkin and wrapped it up inside of it. I could feel it move in my grasp. My friend quickly put it out of it's misery. After leaving the diner, I waited in the car while my friends and their family did some talking outside. It was around this time that there was a lost dog running around, being chased by 2 girls. It was an unleashed Pomeranian. Again, not even a typical lost dog.
The funk hasn't really fully gone away, either. I'm not much for confrontation, but it would seem that whenever it happens, it's usually with people that matter. And I had one (confrontation, discussion, argument, what have you) yesterday. The bottom line of the entire scenario was regarding concern for my well being. I didn't mind any of that. But I think as most people would know, we tend to say things in the heat of the moment. Things that aren't exactly meant to comfort someone. Normally, I can take a shot or two. But there are few things in this world that irk me more than when a person is so convinced that they know they're right about something, that they have someone completely and totally figured out, that they underestimate the "criticizee's" ability. It wouldn't be the first time. Probably won't be the last. But this particular instance has me clearly irritated enough that I'm venting about the whole damn thing. I typically use these scenarios as fuel. That's the best way I get over it.
Monday, June 10, 2013
Things I Learned Over The Weekend
- I missed out on a lot of great games this year
- I haven't vegged out in forever, felt good and bad
- Being a hired gun musically has proven to be pretty interesting, and fun. Maybe I should pursue this as my full time job. Y'know, before the record deal hits.
- Customer Service. Don't really like it.
- I celebrated Puerto Rican day by doing what any true PRican does. I prayed to Jesus and ate food that tastes delicious but isn't really good for me.
- This being my first year following any sport, I had a lot of fun following the Knicks. That being said, I don't want my home away from home team to win it again this year. But heck, if they're gonna play like they want it, far be it from me to be a hater.
- I really want to make a conscious effort to start working out again. This extra NY food weight's gotta go bye bye.
- Women are beautiful. And that's a problem.
- I can't please everyone. But I can try.
- I also can't help those who ultimately can't help themselves. No matter how much I love them.
- Some people on facebook are waaaay to full of themselves for their own good. It's unattractive and unbecoming.
-It was a nice surprise to teach myself how to play one of my favorite songs on guitar so quickly. I may just have this be the first song I cover & put up on my youtube channel.
- Must do something fun in the city this weekend. It's been a while.
- I haven't vegged out in forever, felt good and bad
- Being a hired gun musically has proven to be pretty interesting, and fun. Maybe I should pursue this as my full time job. Y'know, before the record deal hits.
- Customer Service. Don't really like it.
- I celebrated Puerto Rican day by doing what any true PRican does. I prayed to Jesus and ate food that tastes delicious but isn't really good for me.
- This being my first year following any sport, I had a lot of fun following the Knicks. That being said, I don't want my home away from home team to win it again this year. But heck, if they're gonna play like they want it, far be it from me to be a hater.
- I really want to make a conscious effort to start working out again. This extra NY food weight's gotta go bye bye.
- Women are beautiful. And that's a problem.
- I can't please everyone. But I can try.
- I also can't help those who ultimately can't help themselves. No matter how much I love them.
- Some people on facebook are waaaay to full of themselves for their own good. It's unattractive and unbecoming.
-It was a nice surprise to teach myself how to play one of my favorite songs on guitar so quickly. I may just have this be the first song I cover & put up on my youtube channel.
- Must do something fun in the city this weekend. It's been a while.
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
Cintron's Movie Review: Memorial Day Weekend Edition: Iron Man 3/Waiting/La Casa De Mi Padre
I've read enough movie reviews to know that critics are either going to completely praise, or completely bash a film. I'd like to think of myself as an "easy" critic; someone who will sit through most movies (albeit for better or worse) and can, for the most part, at least try to appreciate what the intent of the film was.
That being said, I intend on making my reviews fairly basic and understandable for those of us who do not have a thesaurus handy. So if you're looking for a review that highlights a painstaking recollection of a particular scene, focal point, or nuance, then look elsewhere. I'm just a quirky movie lover who wants to tell other quirky movie lovers if I liked a film or not. No critic's opinion should ever serve as doctrine. Take my reviews for what they are. But in the end, be your own critic.
I did see Iron Man 3 this weekend. Bottom line, if you've seen the first two films, and you've seen the Avengers, it's a foregone conclusion that you're going to see this one. Enjoy it for what it is: A well performed, big-budgeted, Summer action movie where the good guys win. I am a Robert Downey Jr. fan, and I've said from the get that he makes a perfect Tony Stark: confident (cocky?), sarcastic, witty, flawed, and enduring. Him, combined with a star-studded (wow, am I really using this overused term?) lineup of returning actors Gwyneth "Chris Martin is a blessed man" Paltrow, Don Cheadle, Guy Pierce, and a hilariously performed Ben Kingsley, make for an all-around good (not great) follow-up to Iron Man 2 & The Avengers (which I still haven't seen yet. Crap). Oh! & by the way. The now expected "post credit teaser to the next Marvel film" is nothing more than a quick exchange between Starks and a certain temper-challenged friend of his. It's not focal to the inevitable second Avengers film by any means, but it is a cute little nugget to the film nonetheless.
Iron Man 3 Trailer
Speaking of nuggets, you'll find some pretty...interesting nuggets on Netflix if you do enough searching around. I remember seeing the trailer for this film sometime last year, but had completely forgotten about it till I ran across it again last night. I won't lie: I pretty much loved this movie. If you consider yourself a fan of any of the following:
-Will Ferrell
-Napolean Dynamite/Nacho Libre
-Tarantino Films
-Oddball films
-Desperado/El Mariachi
-Movies That Don't Take Themselves Too Seriously
-Telenovelas
then you will most definitely enjoy this one as much as I did.
The story is essentially a spoof of a retro Spanish action flick, complete with a main villain, a damsel in distress, an unlikely hero, and a classic "revenge" storyline. Something that I must point out is that this, for all intents and purposes, is a Spanish film. As in, 99% of the dialogue is in Spanish. With subtitles provided. This includes Will Ferrell (Armando Alvarez), who is the film's protagonist. If subtitles aren't your thing, or you won't be able to get over the fact that Will Ferrell's enunciation of the Spanish language is better than most of your Hispanic friends or relatives, then do yourself a favor and avoid the film at all costs. For those of you who can overcome the aforementioned, you're in for a hilarious, odd, sexy, purposely cheesy, at times purposely low-budget, yet somehow ridiculously well produced, performed, & visually appealing experience.
Between these two films, I watched "Waiting", which is apparently a modern cult classic that's essentially "Office Space" but in a Friday's-esque restaurant. There aren't many films that are so unbearable that I can't make it through them, but I have to hand it to whomever decided that it would be a good idea to take the talents of performers like Justin Long, Ryan Reynolds, Luis Guzman, and Dane Cook, and completely make you forget why you even found them entertaining to begin with. Hopefully the payday was good enough to justify their agreeing to be a part of such a steaming pile of hot garbage. There are ways of making humor out of genitalia, hooking up with a co-worker, and getting back at an irate customer. This movie almost seems to intentionally avoid those ways. It's unfortunate really, seeing as how the trailer makes it look like so much fun.
Waiting Trailer
Bottom Line:
Iron Man 3 - See it
La Casa De Mi Padre - See It
Waiting - Skip It
That being said, I intend on making my reviews fairly basic and understandable for those of us who do not have a thesaurus handy. So if you're looking for a review that highlights a painstaking recollection of a particular scene, focal point, or nuance, then look elsewhere. I'm just a quirky movie lover who wants to tell other quirky movie lovers if I liked a film or not. No critic's opinion should ever serve as doctrine. Take my reviews for what they are. But in the end, be your own critic.
I did see Iron Man 3 this weekend. Bottom line, if you've seen the first two films, and you've seen the Avengers, it's a foregone conclusion that you're going to see this one. Enjoy it for what it is: A well performed, big-budgeted, Summer action movie where the good guys win. I am a Robert Downey Jr. fan, and I've said from the get that he makes a perfect Tony Stark: confident (cocky?), sarcastic, witty, flawed, and enduring. Him, combined with a star-studded (wow, am I really using this overused term?) lineup of returning actors Gwyneth "Chris Martin is a blessed man" Paltrow, Don Cheadle, Guy Pierce, and a hilariously performed Ben Kingsley, make for an all-around good (not great) follow-up to Iron Man 2 & The Avengers (which I still haven't seen yet. Crap). Oh! & by the way. The now expected "post credit teaser to the next Marvel film" is nothing more than a quick exchange between Starks and a certain temper-challenged friend of his. It's not focal to the inevitable second Avengers film by any means, but it is a cute little nugget to the film nonetheless.
Iron Man 3 Trailer
Speaking of nuggets, you'll find some pretty...interesting nuggets on Netflix if you do enough searching around. I remember seeing the trailer for this film sometime last year, but had completely forgotten about it till I ran across it again last night. I won't lie: I pretty much loved this movie. If you consider yourself a fan of any of the following:
-Will Ferrell
-Napolean Dynamite/Nacho Libre
-Tarantino Films
-Oddball films
-Desperado/El Mariachi
-Movies That Don't Take Themselves Too Seriously
-Telenovelas
then you will most definitely enjoy this one as much as I did.
The story is essentially a spoof of a retro Spanish action flick, complete with a main villain, a damsel in distress, an unlikely hero, and a classic "revenge" storyline. Something that I must point out is that this, for all intents and purposes, is a Spanish film. As in, 99% of the dialogue is in Spanish. With subtitles provided. This includes Will Ferrell (Armando Alvarez), who is the film's protagonist. If subtitles aren't your thing, or you won't be able to get over the fact that Will Ferrell's enunciation of the Spanish language is better than most of your Hispanic friends or relatives, then do yourself a favor and avoid the film at all costs. For those of you who can overcome the aforementioned, you're in for a hilarious, odd, sexy, purposely cheesy, at times purposely low-budget, yet somehow ridiculously well produced, performed, & visually appealing experience.
Between these two films, I watched "Waiting", which is apparently a modern cult classic that's essentially "Office Space" but in a Friday's-esque restaurant. There aren't many films that are so unbearable that I can't make it through them, but I have to hand it to whomever decided that it would be a good idea to take the talents of performers like Justin Long, Ryan Reynolds, Luis Guzman, and Dane Cook, and completely make you forget why you even found them entertaining to begin with. Hopefully the payday was good enough to justify their agreeing to be a part of such a steaming pile of hot garbage. There are ways of making humor out of genitalia, hooking up with a co-worker, and getting back at an irate customer. This movie almost seems to intentionally avoid those ways. It's unfortunate really, seeing as how the trailer makes it look like so much fun.
Waiting Trailer
Bottom Line:
Iron Man 3 - See it
La Casa De Mi Padre - See It
Waiting - Skip It
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