I really feel like so much has been going on for me personally that I've not been able to keep track of any of it, or even fully appreciate it. Things haven't been flawless. They never really are. This is an imperfect world, after all. But I've got my health, I've got a roof over my head, I've got a good job, I've got a love that has and is strengthening with every hurdle we come across, my closest family and friends are with me, and it's all in no small part thanks to my Lord & savior, whom I often forget to thank & praise.
That being said...
I still feel that need to create. There's still that part of me that is not satisfied with where I am career-wise. It itches at me everyday. Some days more than others. But it's often held back. Mostly just because of me. I hold me back. I know I've got something. I just don't always know what to do with it. Where to start. Who to share it with. Who to trust it with. Who to ask about it. When the right time is to go for it. When the wrong time is. If the time has passed, or if it's yet to come, and if it does, will it be that storied thing that someone strives and fights for so long to achieve, only to find that it wasn't all that worth it to sacrifice or struggle for in the first place. Guess I won't know till I try.
